I don't quite know how to say how I feel.

Hope; dangles on a string..

this few days..
Jammm
life_puppet
1. LACK OF SLEEP
2. LACK OF SLEEP
3. LACK OF SLEEP


im almost late for work EVERYDAY! i need sleep. alot alot alot of it :(

oh yeah, i saw 飞轮海 ytd at work \(^-^)/
i was changing in the toilet,and my colleagues were screaming "飞轮海" to me,luckily i was done alrdy,so i RAN OUT of sakae and chase after them!!
yes,my speed was like WIND!! :DDD* even the customers got a shock. LOL.
so anyway,since i havent start work,i went crazy over them.
I SHOOK HANDS WITH 汪东城 and they were SO CLOSE TO ME!!!
i regretted not bringing my phone along!i didnt know they will be sort of beside me lahs! (X_X)
~AH!!!~
okay,im not a superbigfan of them, BUT CAN SEE SHUAI GE IS A VERY HIGH THING TO ME. :D
after that,they went to the bun restaurant beside sakae to eat. KAOS,the people there sure damn high!!!!


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PS: even the chefs are slacking and taking pictures of them!!

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not very clear eh. this is the "PART 2" of chasing them.
HAHAHAs. i went back sakae to take my phone. then ran to the restaurant.
apparently,the restaurant was 'cleared' for them. the whole restaurant only got 飞轮海, the reporters&bodyguards and the ppl working thr.
COOL MAN :DDD
anyhows, it's so unforgettable, cos b4 they came,i was stil talking to Kelis, EH and Alvin abt them. HAHAHA. 

IF ONLY THEY'RE KAT-TUN! i really dont know what i'll do if i see KT.
i really really really want to see KAME in reality :X
my god. but if i see them, i might stone for a few minutes first..
by then,they're alrdy gone! :(
I MISS KAT-TUN. I MISS KAME!I MISS JIN!I MISS JUNNO!I MISS KOKI!I MISS UEDA!I MISS NAKAMARU!

worked half-day tday.
dinner = Cafe Cartel@PS with Aaron and EH :]
super fun.super full.
there was a realy cool joke abt Cafe Cartel. HAHAHA xP
oh,and EH was 'interested' in a cool girl, so we passed her his number. HAHAHAs. super funny :D
after that went Novena to check out that sakae we'll be gg :]
but cant find it (T^T)
so anyway,im 'moving' to Novena's sakae nx wk. gna go thr to clean up the place b4 opening -_-|||



anyway, GIVE ME BACK MY BLACKKKK-BROWN HAIR!! >_<

oh man, my beautifullll hair.

sigh, a wrong move ruined it all :(

22/01/07
Jammm
life_puppet

oh man,the wedding dinner was uber FUN! :]
i enjoyed myself,and got myself half-drunk :S
yeah,1 cup of carlsberg and 4 cups of wine. i vomited. HAHAHAs.
i was stil wide awake,except that i wasnt feeling well.
Kelis's dad fetched us home. THANK GOD/THANK HIM,or i dont know whats gna happen t me on the train.

they're so right. the bride is always the prettiest!
it's just so sweet <3
HAIYO. when wil i get married? actually,i fear marriage.

yesterday night, i dreamt that KAT-TUN CAME SINGAPORE!!!!
and they held their concert on the train -_-|||
then i was so super crazy, and KAME AVOIDED ME bcos i kept wanting to tk pictures of him. LOLS -_-
i told my cousin "it's so not fair,those strangers dont know KT yet they can be so up-close with them!!!"
then i woke up, and missed how i used to fangirl over about them everyday.

i hate work. i feel so restricted :(
so,i planned nx wk schedule to be very very free.
MONEY IS SECONDARY NOW. i want t enjoy my youth.
after i get my results, it's time to decide if i shld quit.or not to.

busy days
this bittersweet love :]
life_puppet
thursday:
1. NP openhouse
tiring and bored,thats all i can say :(
we climbed slopes, and it wasnt fun at all. those NP students were too shy,they didnt really talk to us. yupps,but Aaron and i had free swensens. LOLs.
friday:
2. TP openhouse
FUNFUNFUN x) i like TP! roughly hv some ideas of where i wna go :D
Ning, Jacqueline, Aaron, GoldenHair&his friends and i went tgt. then we had lunch at the design school,the Fish&Chips' real nice. eh,then we went to watch Aaron's gf perform. NICENICENICE!
okay,i saw many ppls from H.I and some pri sch friends~but i didnt greet. :P im just too tierd of replying "eh,im a private candidate this yr".
3. MEET UP WITH XT,SL FOR DINNER :DDD
Billy Bomber-ed at Marina Square :] then SL's friend(Eileen) came along. walked around,saw a top from Topshop!! it's $43,so i gave up the idea,since ive spent 2/3 of my pay :(
then went Esplanade t enjoy da scenery!! IT'S SUPER NICE. i realised that ive somehow neglected simple things,and just ytd alone made me think alot :\
oh yeah,the sky was super nice.it's been a long time since i looked at the stars,and lying down t look at it gives me alot of "FEEL"!
although we didnt meet for a longgg time, we're stil as close.thats something im super happy abt :D we stil hasn't run out of things to talk about,and are stil as crappy+still taking nonsensical photos and all~ :DDD
came home at 1am. super late,and got nag at :(
somehow i wish she can be more understanding. afterall, im 18 this yr!!!!

today's OFFDAY. went t buy contact lens :D
I FINALLY CAN WEAR CONTACT LENS!! but it's not da normal size kind (T^T) it's smaller. HAHAHA -_- and it's stil kind of big,since ive to force it into my eyes.quite uncomfortable~~
watched "Wishing Stairs" on chn56. haiyo. it's quite scary. more to the disgusting side. eh,somehow,the show is miserable,cos that girl loved thatothergirl so much~ :\ anyhows,it made me wna learn ballet! i watched her toes go "taptaptap" and it's so amazing and nice!!! :P
tmr am working! WOOSA~ \(^-^)/*



LOVE THIS:
"i just lost my phone number, can i borrow yours?"
it's super cute and funny! stole it frm a guy's shirt. i stared at his shirt thruout the whole journey on the train -_-|||



E-L-I-Z-A
Jammm
life_puppet

dear "BEBE",
BECAUSE YOU'RE WORTH IT :)
thanks for this Wonderful Wednesday!!
i really had fun,and im sorry for being super indecisive cos it makes us walk around da same place over and over.oh ya,im sure im gna train my entertaining skills,so that we can "network" better nx time!
thanks for being understanding&lovable,and lending me ur ears. i love you! cos uve been the most wonderful all this time :]

ps.the nx time we meet up,im gna wear that blue dress and go climb mt. faber xD

LOVES


walking around aimlessly
Jammm
life_puppet
i work because ive to work.
i live because ive to live.

人最怕就是动了情 ...
Jammm
life_puppet
saturday sucks.
i got scolded bcos of the AC. :S
and,got scolded by 1 person is not enough, A told J and J told F and F told CL
it seem like im a BIG criminal who had just murdered someone. i dont like it.
i showed a blacker than black face throughout the day. and when i was leaving at 6+, J came to say "whats wrong with you?i feel that u've changed..very different from last time."
my heart sank to the bottom, and i felt *cold wind* blowing against me.


ytd, DL told me we aren't gg Novena outlet,and she doesnt know which outlet we're gg.
omfg. 

besides work, my life is totally in a mess.
- i want to be 21 soon,i want to move out. there's nthg wrong here..really.but i just want to move out. 
- the nervous feeling is coming back, cos of Os results.

took from JY's blog:

靠近一点点
 
by Lara

默默在你的身后守侯的我 多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂 我努力让你感动
在你眼中有多么笨拙的我 决不放弃追逐你的执着
只要你能再多些回应我 一个笑或点头全接受 

能不能再靠近一点点 大声说出你所有感觉
别在紧紧关在只有自己的世界 温暖太阳为你迎接
能不能再靠近一点点 能不能再勇敢一点点
就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢 笑着和你说再见

zombieeed
flyaway forever
life_puppet
pmspmspms.

things seem to be fine for one day,and when tomorrow comes, it's so different again.
我不知道应该抱着怎样的心情/态度去面对我从没想过的变化。
the insecure feeling is coming back!~!~!

suffering from insomia.
no appetite (at times)
sleepy.tired.

if this goes on,im gna look like a drug addict.

things to be happy about:
1. i've watched the Earth go around the Sun for 17 times :)
2. i got my payyyy,which is way higher than what i thought :P
3. im gg shopping!
4. im letting go with a happy heart.
5. im gg Novena outlet soon,which means i can stop seeing ur f-up face
6. i listen to "Precious One" & "Insa" twice everyday :)
7. I DIDNT REGRET BUYING MAYDAY'S ALBUM
8. I LOVE KAT-TUN, DBSK, MAYDAY :)) 




"Sometime時になぜか 胸に迫るloneliness
I don't want to be all alone 
切なくて
Somewhereどこかにいる 大切なonly one
You're not all alone anymore 
1人じゃない
Somedayいつか会える 運命のsomeone you love
ふと気がつけば ほらね 君のそばにいる
君がそばにいる
You'll meet your only one"
- extracted from "Precious One",sang by KAT-TUN


"fly away,fly away; love."
- extracted from "Insa",sang by Hero of DBSK


"你 你的温柔感动了我
我忍耐太久内伤太重
在这一秒我一定要说
就算失败也不沈默"
- “忘词”,五月天


/(-_-)\*

unknown+random rants
Jammm
life_puppet
Q: what is fun about having a blog?
A:
you can rant all u want,and no one will care.

wasnt working ytd and today, I AM SO HAPPY.
it gave me time to sort out my thinking, and im a happy girl again.

I SLEPT ALOT THIS TWO DAYS. omg. i actually woke up in the near-evenings, and i just got tired again and stuffs. 
it's good,i can replenish my energy! :D
tmr,shall not give the "sian"-look. shall surprise all of them :D

YAYNESS*
getting my pay! can finally buy the dress ive been eye-ing on :]
OH YAR, kelis(my colleague) invited me to his bro's wedding!!! WEEEEE~ its been so long since i attended a wedding,so i happily agreed :] ps.i hv a reason to buy that dress now! WOOTS~

ive many things that i planned to do,but did not accomplish during my off-days :(
1. SEND lameologyher super belated christmas card with the 20cents. LOL (gomen!)
2. WASH MY WORKING SHOES. i just washed it a while ago. *prays hard that it'll dry by tmr morning)
3. GO SAKAE TO TAKE MY PAY. im plain too lazy to walk out of my hse!
4. STUDY japanese. im letting the book decompose on my table >:( I REALLY NEED TO HV GOOD TIME MANAGEMENT!!
5. to-do and to-buy list.

im thinking- shld i spend half of my pay on a digi-cam? :P *super tempted* after i failed to buy my SE Z610i.
and i always LOVE taking pics of scenery ;)

anyway, Youtube is finally being nice to me! i watched "My Boss My Hero" till ep4 alrdy :) SO FAR,SO GOOD. i love it :) seriously, Japanese idol drama rarely lets u down. seriously! (except Suppli, cos i didnt like that woman who kame had a crush on.LOLS)

i miss sch alot.i cant wait to go back t sch againnn.
i miss flipping textbooks, falling aslp in class, waiting anxiously for break,studying hard for test(okay,i nvr studied hard b4,but this yr,I WILL), and everything else.
I MISS SCH LIFE. I MISS BEING A STUDENT,AND ENJOYING PRIVILEDGES!!! >_<

went CD-RAMA just now, and i saw the "盛夏光年" soundtrack. im totally amazed by 阿信(mayday).. 
this is the phrase that surprised me 
" 到底,为了那些不能放弃的,我们究竟放弃了什么?"


*falls into deep thoughts ... 

born to love!
Jammm
life_puppet

DBSK - 'O'-正.反.合
I SWEAR I LOVE THEIR DANCE :P
i like MAX(Chang Min)'s hair <3 and HERO IS LOVEEE


this is super funny! it's a short clip,where DBSK are fighting for highest pitch!

:D
i watched MTV J & K-pop just now,cos i caught KAT-TUN's BnMD last week so i was trying out my luck today. anyhow,there's no KAT-TUN,but there're DBSK's vid.they're so cool.

I BOUGHT MAYDAY's album alrdy!
duhs,I LOVE IT!!
they'r coming to Singapore for concert!!!i dont know when,but i've the 10% discount voucher cos of the album! WHO WANTS TO GO WITH ME?!!! 

[ 渴望失忆,因为必须忘记…]
Jammm
life_puppet


两个人~
在地球的两边....
看不到对方~也听不见对方...

抬头看的却是同一片天空~
呼吸著同一种空气~

但没有一个...继续守著他们的承诺....

 
为什么昨天的快乐,会是今天难过的理由?
这次,决定跟着自己的感觉走。。不再去在意你的感受了。
yes two of us,
yes,we can fall in love.
NO MORE! /(T^T)\


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